Destination the Hereafter
- Have you packed your suitcases?
..."Dad was now becoming
more worried about me. I've never cried like that before"...
Her
cheeks were worn and sunken and her skin hugged her bones. That didn't stop her
though; you could never catch her not reciting Quran. Always vigil in her
personal prayer room Dad had set up for her. Bowing, prostrating, raising her
hands in prayer. That was the way she was from dawn to sunset and back again,
boredom was for others.
As for me I craved
nothing more than fashion magazines and novels. I treated myself all the time
to videos until those trips to the rental place became my trademark. As they
say, when something becomes habit people tend to distinguish you by it. I was
negligent in my responsibilities and laziness characterized my Salah.
One night, I turned the
video off after a marathon three hours of watching. The azaan softly rose in
that quiet night. I slipped peacefully into my blanket.
Her voice carried from
her prayer room. "Yes? Would you like anything Norah?"
With a sharp needle she
popped my plans. 'Don't sleep before you pray Fajar!'
"Agh ... there's
still an hour before Fajar, that was only the first azaan!"
With those loving
pinches of hers, she called me closer. She was always like that, even before
the fierce sickness shook her spirit and shut her in bed. 'Hanan can you come
sit beside me.'
I could never refuse any
of her requests, you could touch the purity and sincerity. "Yes,
Norah?"
'Please sit here.'
"OK, I'm sitting.
What's on your mind?"
With the sweetest mono
voice she began reciting:
[Every soul shall taste
death and you will merely be repaid your earnings on Resurrection Day{3:185}]
She stopped
thoughtfully. Then she asked, 'Do you believe in death?'
"Of course I
do."
'Do you believe that you
shall be responsible for whatever you do, regardless of how small or large?'
"I do, but . Allah
is Forgiving and Merciful and I've got a long life waiting for me."
'Stop it Hanan ...
aren't you afraid of death and it's abruptness? Look at Hind. She was younger
than you but she died in a car accident. So did so and so, and so and so. Death
is age-blind and your age could never be a measure of when you shall die.'
The darkness of the room
filled my skin with fear. "I'm scared of the dark and now you made me
scared of death, how am I supposed to go to sleep now. Norah, I thought you
promised you'd go with us on vacation during the summer break."
Impact. Her voice broke
and her heart quivered. 'I might be going on a long trip this year Hanan, but
somewhere else. Just maybe. All of our lives are in Allah's hands and we all
belong to Him.'
My eyes welled and the
tears slipped down both cheeks.
I pondered my sisters
grizzly sickness, how the doctors had informed my father privately that there
was not much hope that Norah was going to outlive the disease. She wasn't told
though. Who hinted to her? Or was it that she could sense the truth.
'What are you thinking about Hanan?' Her voice was sharp. 'Do you
think I am just saying this because I am sick? Uh - uh. In fact, I may live
longer than people who are not sick. And you Hanan, how long are you going to
live? Twenty years, maybe? Forty? Then what?' Through the dark she reached for
my hand and squeezed gently. 'There's no difference between us; we're all going
to leave this world to live in Paradise or agonize in Hell.
I left my sister's room
dazed, her words ringing in my ears: "May Allah guide you Hanan - don't
forget your prayer."
Eight O'clock in the
morning. Pounding on my door. I don't usually wake up at this time. Crying.
Confusion. O Allah, what happened?
Norah's condition became
critical after Fajar, they took her immediately to the hospital ... Inna
lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un....this is what Norah always said to say if she
died.
There wasn't going to be
any trips this summer. It was written that I would spend the summer at home., i
could feel it.
At hospital....
It was one O'clock in
the afternoon. Mother phoned the hospital. 'Yes. You can come and see her now.'
Dad's voice had changed, mother could sense something had gone deathly wrong.
We left immediately.
Where was that avenue I
used to travel and thought was so short? Why was it so long now, so very long.
Where was the cherished crowd and traffic that would give me a chance to gaze
left and right. Everyone, just move out of our way. Mother was shaking her head
in her hands - crying - as she made du'a for her Norah.
We arrived at the
hospitals main entrance.
One man was moaning,
another was involved in an accident and a third's eyes were iced, you couldn't
tell if he was alive or dead.
We skipped stairs to
Norah's floor. She was in intensive care.
The nurse approached us.
'Let me take you to her.' As we walked down the aisles the nurse went on
expressing how sweet a girl Norah was. She reassured Mother somewhat that
Norah's condition had gotten better than what it was in the morning.
'Sorry. No more than one
visitor at a time.' This was the intensive care unit. Through the small window
in the door and past the flurry of white robes I caught my sisters eyes. Mother
was standing beside her. After two minutes, mother came out unable to control
her crying.
'You may enter and say
Salaam to her on condition that you do not speak too long,' they told me. 'Two
minutes should be enough.'
"How are you Norah?
You were fine last night sister, what happened?"
We held hands, she
squeezed harmlessly. 'Even now, Alhamdulillah, I'm doing fine.'
"Alhamdulillah ...
but ... your hands are so cold."
I sat on her bedside and
rested my fingers on her knee. She jerked it away.
"Sorry ... did I
hurt you?" "No, it is just that I remembered Allah's words [One leg
will be wrapped to the other leg (in the death shroud)]
... Hanan pray for me. I
may be meeting the first day of the hereafter very soon. It is a long journey
and I haven't prepared enough good deeds in my suitcase.'
A tear escaped my eye
and ran down my cheek at her words. I cried and she joined me. The room blurred
away and left us - two sisters - to cry together. Rivulets of tears splashed
down on my sister's palm, which I held with both hands. Dad was now becoming
more worried about me. I've never cried like that before.
At home and upstairs in
my room, I watched the sun pass away with a sorrowful day. Silence mingled in
our corridors. A cousin came in my room, another. The visitors were many and
all the voices from downstairs stirred together.
Only one thing was clear
at that point ... Norah had died!
I stopped distinguishing
who came and who went. I couldn't remember what they said. O Allah, where was
I? What was going on? I couldn't even cry anymore.
Later that week they
told me what had happened. Dad had taken my hand to say goodbye to my sister
for the last time, I had kissed Norah's head.
I remember only one
thing though, seeing her spread on that bed, the bed that she was going to die
on. I remembered the verse she recited: [One
leg will be wrapped to the other leg (in the death shroud){75:29}]
and I knew too well the truth of the next verse: [The drive on that day we be to your
Lord (Allah)!{75:30}]
I tiptoed into her
prayer room that night. Staring at the quiet dressers and silenced mirrors, I
treasured who it was that had shared my mother's stomach with me. Norah was my
twin sister.
I remembered who I had
swapped sorrows with. Who had comforted my rainy days. I remembered who had
prayed for my guidance and who had spent so many tears for so many long nights
telling me about death and accountability. May Allah save us all.
Tonight is Norah's first
night that she shall spend in her tomb. O Allah, have mercy on her and illumine
her grave. This was her Quran, her prayer mat and .and this was the spring
rose-colored dress that she told me she would hide until she got married, the
dress she wanted to keep just for her husband.
I remembered my sister
and cried over all the days that I had lost. I prayed to Allah to have mercy on
me, accept me and forgive me. I prayed to Allah to keep her firm in her grave,
as she always liked to mention in her supplications.
At that moment, I
stopped. I asked myself: what if it was I who had died? Where would I be moving
on to? Fear pressed me and the tears began all over again.
The first azaan rose
softly from the Masjid, how beautiful it sounded this time. I felt calm and
relaxed as I repeated the Muadhins call. I wrapped the shawl around my
shoulders and stood to pray Fajar. I prayed as if it was my last prayer, a
farewell prayer, just like Norah had done yesterday. It had been her last
Fajar.
Now and insha' Allah for
the rest of my life, if I awake in the mornings I do not count on being alive
by evening, and in the evening I do not count on being alive by morning.
We are all going on
Norah's journey - what have we prepared for it?
My sister has already left on this eternal
journey? Have YOU & I packed our suitcases?
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Hazrat Abdullah bin Umar R.A says that someone asked
the Prophet (sallallahu alaiyhi wassallam) which man is the
wisest.The Prophet (sallallahu alaiyhi wassallam) said that; the one who
remembers death much and is ever engaged in making preparation for it.These
are the men who have become masters of this world and the next. (TIBRANI)
Hazrat Abdullah bin Umar R.A. says that the Prophet
(sallallahu alaiyhi wassallam) putting his hand on his shoulder, said that
they should spend life like a traveller.He forbode to wait for the
morning in the evening and for evening in the morning.He advised to
accumulate the prayers when he is healthy; keeping the period of illness
in mind and should do something good for the death when he is ill.
(BUKHARI)
Hazrat Shaddad bin Aus(R.A.) says that the
Prophet (sallallahu alaiyhi wassallam) has said that the alert man is one;
who takes account of his life and does alot of good actions; which may be
useful to him after death. (TIRMIZI)
The following are a few important masaa-il (rulings)
that pertain to people who have many qadhaa salaah to perform.
