An end & a beginning

I'm sitting here and trying to get this naggy feeling out of my head...its been a long time since my Nana (grand dad) passed away and I have thoughts of him constantly. I have restless dreams of him calling me, other times he is happy and smiling whilst sitting on a bench in the most loveliest of all gardens I have ever seen, and than I awake...shivering and cold wondering what's the meaning of these dreams.

I think of him constantly and all these memories come back rushing: Walking to the fruit shop and butcher early on a Saturday morning, driving my siblings & I to school, giving me spending money, spoiling me and mostly of all his laughter which reminds me of a bright sparkly sunny day, than one day all of this ends....suddenly

In my small world where death never existed just of happy memories of us being together always, little did we realise that the Almighty has other plans for us indeed! I cherish those memories and the days culminating to my wedding day where I thought of him at every turn, I've always been his favourite amongst the grandchildren...I wonder how things would be if he was still around amongst us, there are many things that I would have loved to say to him if given the chance but Inshallah one day we will meet, one day when the threads of time end...

It was whilst searching for an answer to why him and why only those that you love the most have to leave this Dunya'a for Barzakh, I came to the finality that we Insaan cannot and should not question the Almighty for He is the All Knowing, All Seeing, The Master of the Universe and Most Merciful, Oft-Forgiving and the Master of the Day of Judgement. This post helped me understand somewhat that this is the way things are and best to be left that way...In Allah (swt) hands as he is the Master of our Taqdeer (Destination):-

Death: What a Wonderful way to explain it!!

A sick man turned to his doctor, as he was preparing to leave the examination room and said,

"Doctor, I am afraid to die.

Tell me what lies on the other side.

" Very quietly, the doctor said, "I don't know." "You don't know?
You, a Muslim man, does not know what’s on the other side?"

The doctor was holding the handle of the door; on the other side came a sound of scratching and whining, and as he opened the door, a dog sprang into the room and leaped on him with an eager show of gladness.

Turning to the patient, the doctor said, "Did you notice my dog?
He's never been in this room before. He didn't know what was inside.
He knew nothing except that his master was here, and when the door opened, he sprang in without fear.

I know little of what is on the other side of death, but I do know one thing...
I know that my Master & Creator is there and that is enough"

I make Dua'a always that the Almighty Allah (swt) grant him as well as all of my other family, friends and not forgetting those that have passed away in the Ummah of Nabi (SAW) - a Qabr (resting place) as lush and fragrant and as wide and far as the naked eye can see, good pious neighbours and respite from the Azaab (reckoning) of the Qabr, and the loftiest abode in Jannat-ul-Firdowse, Inshallah ~ Aameen!

I make Dua'a that on the day of Qiya'amah the Almighty makes it easy for us all in that we may cross the Pul-e-Siraat with such ease and that our entry into Jannat-ul-Firdowse will be amongst Nabi (SAW), his wives - Umme Momineen (RA), his companions (RA), the Shaabha's (RA), the Ahle-Bait (RA) and those believing men and women who accepted Islam upon hearing the way of Life of our Nabi (SAW), Inshallah Aameen.